P2d9!!! Be prepared to feel envious of those eating like shit

Alrighty then,,,, day 9 huh, wow. Today I woke up in the best mood ever I feel fucking fantastic!!

So I weighed in at 184.4. So cheating was actually a 3 or four day ordeal.
Last night I took my cousins to FudRuckers, It's a burger joint and I ordered a side salad although I really wanted one of those veggie burgers and fries!! I knew it was not a good idea to do that. So I'm watching my cousins eat their food and I don't feel anything. Nothing at all. No jealousy or nothing. I remember back in the day I was really jealous of my friends and family eating whatever they wanted to eat.
I was down right saddened that I could not eat what they were eating. Did it make me depressed? YES!!



Depressed and hungry and sad. So Last night I just proved to myself that it doesn't have to be that way at all.
I was happy with my side salad. Although when they brought it to me, it was covered with cheese, croutons, a side of garlic bread, cabbage it was a nightmare salad for me. So I gave it to my boyfriend and he was happy to eat it. I mean it's a salad so still healthy, just not for me right now.

So I got smart. At this eatery they have tomatoes, three different kinds of lettuce, onion and salsa and pickles so you can put your burger together.

What I did was ask for a side plate and I made my own salad and I put salsa on it instead of dressing!!!
It was so delicious!!! I am so proud of myself.

That was a feat. So cheating set me back and mentally I was thinking fuck not again. And I didn't I learned and moved on!!
Any way thanks for reading, It's going grand and I am loving it!!!



Sarah-  ☮